I tried to run away from it… tried to hide myself from its clutches… but the darkness found me and as it engulfed me, I lost all traces of happiness. My whole life seems meaningless as the pain rose within my heart and my vision blurred. I was facing a spasm. The physical pain I could stand… it was the countless needles puncturing my existence… my soul that I got scared of.
I clutched harder at the dream world I had created around me, at the fantasy I presumed was my life. My hands slipped and I fell back into the dark void… the freezing cold agony chilling me to the core. Was it fire or was it ice? I couldn’t tell as it made me shudder and scream in pain.
Does everyone feel like this I wondered? Maybe they did… I didn’t know… I just felt myself drowning in pools of depressions, where I saw nothing that could rescue from the fiery depths. Life is hard… but does it have to be impossible? I tried hard to accept all my problems as a part of my reality but I’m done making excuses for all my suffering.
I have no grudges against anyone. I don’t pray for happiness and joy. I have stopped yearning for fulfillment and satisfaction… I just wish I could make the darkness go away.
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